Friday, November 03, 2006
Faith
There are times in our lives when we seek deliverance. But God wants us to have faith - faith enough to hold on. But holding on does not mean being miserable. When the Son of Man comes, will He find persevering faith? He will be looking for faith that has been tried by the delay of deliverance
-a quote from Hannah's entry
Sunday, September 17, 2006
People, colors and action
Stop.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Stay With Me, Goo Goo Dolls
And these streets turn me inside out
Everything shines but leaves me empty still
And I'll, I'll burn this lonely house down
If you run with me
If you run with me
I'll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
So take my hand now
We'll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I'll stay with you
And I'm fooled by my own desire
I twist my fate just to feel you
And you, you turn me toward the light
And you're one with me
Will you run with me?
I'll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
So take my hand now
We'll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I'll stay with you
Now, come in from this storm
And I taste you sweet and warm
Take what you need
Take what you need
From me
Now, wake up this world
Wake up tonight
And run to me, run to me now
I'll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
So take my hand now
We'll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I'll stay with you
I'll stay with you
Thursday, August 17, 2006
It's always have and never hold
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Friday, August 11, 2006
Susie Suh: Seasons Change
Dear readers,
In case you were wondering, the muse is not back to write, but to inform you guys that I've just upgraded my Flickr account to a pro user account (I paid US 24.99 for it!), meaning to say, you guys are still enabled to view my pictures here! Albums are on the right bar and i'm still organizing the sets so behold!
Other than that, I'm still writing elsewhere, most of you should be able to find me by now, but to those that hasnt, good luck in finding me! As of now , life has been close to the seasons' changing, making it feel like an entity sometimes. I'm finally off attachment and i'm all geared up for the next phase of unknown surprises; whatever is awaitng for me. Friendship has been blossoming, a fair share of love has hit on me too, family on the other hand has been surviving pretty strong and well and i'm looking forward to the brissy trip!
Lastly, a big overdue shoutout to my Sherry darling! I hope you had a blast at your bash and its 21 goin' on forever baby!
I suppose at the end of the day, true happiness arises from self-acceptance, a station that depends upon ourselves. Till the next long update darlings !
Thursday, July 06, 2006
l'appeler la douleur: to call it the pain
Two nights ago I came to this juncture where I've completely lost my sense of judgement and went out of control emotionally and physically and landed myself in the hospital. On my way there I recalled grasping for air to withdraw from consciousness, I also remembered the pain inflicted on my oral walls and my body, the multiple phone calls/ textes that were sent and received, I remembered bawling my lungs out and constantly repeating "I will be fine, right?", the words that were said to "please keep yourself strong and well for me" and I remembered crying out for his name in desperation despite what seemed to be a craggy journey.
As I lay here restlessly thinking about what will be going through your (readers and friends) mind while reading this I will bear all remarks said and told because truth has made known to me for being a fucked up, dumb founded cockhead to remove my life away from everything so close to me. I am worth so much more than that and I know it because I finally felt it and heard it.
Is this what you meant by "loving and giving?"
Now I will try to retreat my arms back from everything, to stop wallowing in despair. I dont know why am I still clinging on hoping for a hope to fly by . I believed in you, I believed in myself, I believed in my actions and consequences and I believed that wasnt necessary. But this neverending sense of familiarity will go all ways to haunt me, it will never leave me alone, so all I can do now is to pray and to move away from all this as fast as I can. I thought I had you all over me, I thought you had me all over you. I thought we had each other at our fingertips. I thought this was it, I thought the days of winning lottery, the days of flying high in our dreams, the amount of genuine you had for true love's existence, it was all a scheme again isnt it ?
So now I will move on and cease blogging at this site till my emotions come back to me. For your eyes of curiousity you might be able to find me at Livejournal. Some of you may already have, some may not. But whatever the case is, I will continue to live my life the way it should be as a teenager, to call it a pain in this chapter and to bid my goodbyes to something that will always remain in me, as I remain in the hearts of my loved ones. Thanks for the time, concern and effort that everybody gave over the past days. This will be it.
